MUCH ANGER!!!

Check out Stephenie Meyer's webpage for the full details.... www.stepheniemeyer.com but seriously someone leaked a copy of Midnight Sun and now SM might not even finish it. MUCH MUCH MUCH ANGER! For now I am boycotting reading it because I am so upset...although I know this will not change SM's decision to put off writing and publishing it indefinitely. GRRRRR!!!!

P.S. There is a post about this over at that blog I mentioned before http://www.myfavoriteauthor.blogspot.com/

Couldn't Sleep and Other Things

So, ya, if you look at the timestamp (which I think may be off) you may notice that it is uncharictaristically VERY early in the morning (like 4:00 a.m.). For some reason all of a sudden I could not get comfortable in my bed and my leg kindof had a restless feel. Since I have no idea what real RLS feels like, it is the only thing I can describe it as. I haven't had that feelings since towards the end of my pregnancy. So it woke me up. I am hoping that by distracting myself for a while on the computer I will get tired enough again that I can go back to sleep. Tomorrow is going to be rough if it doesn't happen soon.

Last night I was thinking a lot about relationships. Particuarly marriage relationships. It is interesting me to see who people end up with. I don't see it as anyone got stuck with anyone else, but rather that we made a choice of who to be with. We may have felt at the time like there was no choice, we loved the person and that was that. But was it really that simple? Don't we choose to give our hearts to certain people, and to others we think better of it?

People who know me well know that Tyson was my first and only real boyfriend. But that doesn't mean I didn't have other options at various points in my life. What was it about Tyson that made it so easy for me to allow myself to be that vulnerable and open up my heart to him completely and no one else?

Part of it was timing. He was there at the right time in the right place. He had goals that were in line with what I wanted out of life. And of course isn't it always about timing? Most of the other guys that were "almost" boyfriends it was always the timing. I was too young, or he was just moving away, or something like that. So Tyson had that down....but it was much much more than that.

I turned to Tyson today and said "You know honey, of all the guys I could have ended up with, I am so glad it was you." And I mean it. Tyson and I are not what I would call two peas in a pod, but rather two very different flavors that were meant to mingle. Like on Ratatouille, some foods are just better when they are mixed. Tyson plain and simple makes me happy. He makes me complete. I know that is clique to say, but it is true. I have a hard time loving myself a lot of the time, and he is always there to remind me that he loves me. He has taken care of me through my worst moments, and he is the most unselfish person on the planet. He is the world's greatest dad. Really, I am not just biased. How many husbands are the ones to wake up with the baby in the morning, because they know thier wife is not a morning person? And not just every so often, like EVERY day. Wow. I am often amazed at how wonderful he is and wonder why he picked me!

Anywho, that is what I have been thinking a lot about lately, so I thought I'd share. I guess I'd better go try and get some sleep.

Tip of the Evening

No matter what the thread count, don't try to sleep on new sheets that have not been laundered. The industrial starch makes them itchy...it is not fun. It is 11:00 p.m. and we are changing our sheets right now, cause I couldn't stand another itchy night.

Time for Change

I felt that now that all the big Breaking Dawn stuff was mostly over with, it was time for a change in background. What do you think? Tyson thinks its a bit too girly, but since all of his family members are girls (including the cat) I thought it was appropriate.

Enjoy the new look....next project, fix my music so 1) there are more songs and 2) it os random, so its a different song everytime you look.

My Favorite Author

Okay, so most of you have already received an e-mail from me, but for anyone who might just be browsing and they see this post, you gotta check out this cool new blog dedicated to reading, and authors and all that jazz. It's a great one and they are open for lots of comments and conversation!

www.myfavoriteauthor.blogspot.com

enjoy!

Happiness

I just really wanted to post because I am feeling really happy right now. I think of the many times that I allow myself to get in a rut. I feel down on myself because of my physical appearance, or perhaps I feel left out for some reason, or maybe I just don't feel good enough. I think I let those moments take up too much of my life. It is human to feel that way I suppose, and I realize we all feel this way at times (although I think we also all feel that we are the only ones feeling that way when we are feeling it), but I compare those moments to how I feel right this very moment. Maybe the reason why I have those moments is the whole "opposition in all things" idea. Because the way I feel right now could would not be as sweet if I didn't know the opposite feeling.

When we first moved to our new home I was scared beyond belief! I knew no one. And I mean NO ONE that lives even remotely close to the area. At the time none of my siblings still lived in Utah anymore. It was just me and Tyson, and we were moving away from the area we had lived in for nearly 6 years (two of those years were our dating years). I am a very outgoing person...most of the time. The one exception? When I don't know anyone. Needless to say it took me a long time to feel comfortable here.

What made the difference? Honestly, it was book club! I have found the most incredible women and friends through book club. These are women I am comfortable sharing my innermost feelings and thoughts with. They have been there for me and I there for them through many things unrelated to books! Tonight I have had a chance to touch base with a few of them through blogs and phone calls, and really I just feel happy. I wanted to thank all of them for that, for helping me find happiness in our corner of the world. Because without you I truly would still feel lost.

Honestly, I'd love to have responses. Pick one thing that makes you happy that is maybe not the most obvious (like my baby girl makes me happy every day, and that is a WHOLE separate post, but I won't go into it right now). I anxiously await your responses!

Book Club (Spoilers for Breaking Dawn)

Last night we had our book club discussion on Breaking Dawn. It was so much fun! I don't think I have ever been hoarse after a book club before! But I certainly was after last night! I think we had the most animated discussion, the best ideas and good debating. By the way, those of you who have differing opinions I say YAY! I hope you didn't feel like when someone disagreed with you that it was an attack on your opinion. I think it was just a fun and great discussion.

We discussed Renesmee and Jacob, Edward's character and the way he reacted to things, Bella as a vampire, our belief that Bella should have some sort of precognition ability based on what SM wrote in the series with her foreshadowing dreams. We discussed our dissapointment that at the end of the series Demitri is still alive, we talked about Billy, Charlie and Sue, the Cullen cars, the romantic scenes and whether or not we thought they were too much and if we would let our daughters read the books, and at what age (that was a big debate, but it was a constructive one), we used quotes from SM's interviews since Breaking Dawn came out, etc.

We also talked about the movie and how excited we are about it. A friend of one of the girls in book club rented a theater for the midnight showing and we are all going together! Yay! Another chance to wear our T-shirts. I feel a little silly having a ticket for a movie 4 months in advance! But I am super excited! I think it will be better than I expected at first. SM has said she LOVES it and really looks forward to her fan's reactions. So that makes me more excited about it!

Anyway, I just had to share how much fun I had last night. I'm exhausted and Becca is not taking her normal morning nap at the moment, but is fussing like she needs to, so I must run. HUGS!